I’m not a happy camper right now so this post will probably kind of suck. Maybe not kind of. More like outright. Yesterday was a total disaster on food. I ate badly at breakfast, and was prepared to have a light and early dinner around 4pm. Then friends called to go out at dinner at 7pm, so we grabbed a small bite to eat around 2pm and at 7pm met them at Olive Garden. I made decent choices there, but I was over my daily intake before we even started, and I honestly didn’t care at that point. I didn’t even bother to write any of it down when I got home either and can’t remember it all now.
Today, Saturday, was AV Pride, which was, to put it simply, a complete bust. Between my space fee and my insurance I had to get, I spent $72.00. Then I had to buy tables- 2 6 foot folding tables from Walmart set me back another $90.00. That’s $162.00 now, not even counting what I spent on supplies to make some of the stuff I took with me. I took $15.00 in change. The turnout was very small until about 5pm, and then more people showed up. The wind was extremely high, and at one point the tent stakes were ripped out of the ground and the tent nearly knocked over the tables. Add in every five minutes I had to leave the booth to chase after some of my merchandise that blew away, and by the time 5pm rolled around, I was ready to go. Still, I stayed until almost 8pm, and then I was so frustrated at everything constantly being blown away and the fact that no one was buying, I packed everything up and left. Apparently its possible for me to take 2 6 foot tables on a dolly, a folding chair, a duffel bag with 35 pounds of stuff in it, and a large trash bag full of stuff in a single trip across several hundred feet uphill to my car. I was mad at the whole damn day. I came home with $129.00 in my pocket. Take out the costs and the change I started with, and I’m still $48.00 in the hole. Not. Happy. At. All.
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Scale was down to a new low this morning, just a teensy bit lower than yesterday. I had what’s become my pretty much normal breakfast of a granola bar and coffee, except no coffee because someone used all the milk. :( I also fixed the last of the hash browns, and added some salsa. I ended up going to Wienerschnitzel after that for a corn dog and iced tea, but they didn’t have any tea, so I just got the corn dog. That was sad too. :-/
I thought I was done as of last night with making things for AV Pride, but then after I ate this morning, started on another necklace and earrings, and I took apart and re-made the one zippered bag with lighter fabric that I did not use interfacing in and added some. The necklace and earrings were almost a total bust as I tried about ten different ways with different materials to make it work before something finally did. And after all that, they still aren’t exactly like I wanted them. If I had some 22g wire, I could have done exactly what I wanted, but all I have is 18g, and that’s too heavy to fit through the smaller beads I wanted to use. I ended up using paddle pins instead, which I have tons of, but its just not quite right. I did get to use some of those really garish dyed yellow turquoise nuggets I have and they actually look good with the green stone butterflies. As of right now, this is what I’ve got. I think. The earring count might be slightly off.
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Day 257. In just 18 days, I will be 9 months, 3/4ths of a year into my journey. Some days I feel really good about what I’ve lost and other days I feel like I’ve totally sucked at all my work and its just not working, especially when I compare myself to people who have lost more than double what I have in the same time frame. But when I look at my progress graph, I see it is working, and I’ve made fairly steady progress almost the entire time. Last week was great. I lost 2.9 pounds, and it felt wonderful! This week I am determined to do it again, and I hope I can continue this trend for a while (indefinitely?). I would love to see 40 pounds gone by July 31st. 6.7 pounds in 34 days is manageable if I stick to the plan, eating right and carefully, and not going overboard. Portion control is so important and sometimes I forget that, especially when the food is really good. Kenlie made a post today about food, eating, and being preoccupied with thoughts of food, and how different it is to not feel that way when its what you’re used to. Lisa left a comment that I couldn’t agree with more. I tend to be a bored eater (also a nervous eater) and staying busy with different projects works wonders for keeping me away from snacking and keeping myself on track. The last few weeks have been mostly good for me because I’ve been so busy with preparing for AV Pride. I’ve spent at least a few hours almost every day either beading or sewing, and taking a quick inventory here and there to see what I’ve actually got that will be going with me. I’ve actually got over 150 items ready to go, and will have a few more which I’m working on tonight and maybe tomorrow.
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I’ve been trying to make a point of reading for a few hours each week lately, and I was almost all the way through the pile of books on my nightstand. Then I made the “mistake” of digging through a few hundred pages of Amazon’s bargain books under $5 and the 4 for 3 deals and found a few more. These are the books that are either on my night stand or are on the way to me now. I’m not really sure what order I’ll read them in, though I think Meet Your Happy Chemicals will be high in the rotation.
First though, I have to get through the latest issue of Asimov’s. I started that this afternoon, and I want to finish it and get started on something else before the month is out. And yes, you spy a trashy romance in that list- For some reason I don’t know I was suddenly able to remember the titles of the really trashy ones I read when I was in 5th grade, at school no less, and nearly got suspended for. My mother was not happy.
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