Its been almost two weeks since my last post. On the surface, things have been okay. Food has been mostly good, and we tried a few new meal ideas. Two out of the three were good, but one tasted like crap. Jami and Jason tried it as well, and Jami agreed it was gross. So gross. I went to the gym once somewhere in there, and we’ve been out to eat a few times. Saturday night we had a bad movie night here at the house, and after the third movie, I don’t think we have any friends left. We watched Under The Cherry Moon, The Calamari Wrestler, and Birdemic. The first one was bad, the second one better but the last one was awful.


Yeah, the birds in the movie were all badly animated gifs. Absolutely awful.

I had a wake up moment late last week after breaking a bowl while washing dishes. You know how something might happen once in a while, slowly occurring with more frequency over time and you don’t even notice it as wrong, just as something that happens? It just creeps in? It was one of those. For the past 5 years or so, I’ve been having issues with a lot of things. Dizziness, general weakness, I’ve passed out a few times, blurred vision like I was looking through frosted glass, tremors in my hands, inability to grasp or hold items on occasion, muscle twitches, and if I am standing for more than about a minute I have to lean on something to support myself. All these things have been occurring more and more often, and with greater intensity, to the point some of them, like needing to lean on things, and general weakness are almost constant. Apparently all of these are side effects to the Wellbutrin I have been on for 6 years, but I was unaware of it, so for 6 years I’ve been saying no, no side effects. I feel like going to the gym is generally out of reach now because I don’t feel like I am strong enough to do anything. I worry I will hurt myself, or fall off of the treadmill, or any number of other things.

I called the mental health clinic and asked for a new appointment date since my next appointment is in November. They were able to move me up to this Thursday but it still seems so far off. I know its only two days away now, but I’ve been feeling rather panicked since realizing all of these things could be tied to my medication and they are getting worse. Previously I did not want to change medications, but now I really wan to get away from the Wellbutrin and stay away from it.


I have no idea what my hair is even doing here, but my neck was cozy and warm!

I taught myself to knit last Friday, and I made a little ascot-type scarf with a button in it, and started on a real scarf right afterwards. I only know how to knit and purl, but I figure I will pick up more as I go. I was really surprised at how easy it was to learn the basics, though I had to watch several videos about casting on to get that right. It doesn’t help that every video seems to use a different method to do it.

The weather is cooling off a little, but the temperature is going up again this weekend. We are suppose to be hitting the 90’s again. The last few days were super nice though and it was good to be able to turn off the air and just open the house up.

I spent an hour or so today making clay beads. I use about 6 different colors, and started of by just making plain round beads. Then I added textures to the surfaces and to most of them added other decorations- flowers, squiggles, polka dots, hearts.

Monday we had pool and it started off about as spectacularly bad as was possible. My first game I broke, and I only broke successfully by chance. I bounced the cue across the table, landing it in the middle of the rack, and bouncing of of the table. That should have been my clue that the game was going to go badly. I managed to get two of my balls in after too many tries, and then when my opponent had only the 8-ball left, I mistaked the 9-ball for the cue and fouled, giving him ball in hand to put the 8 in. It was just bad. My other three games went much better, netting me a 6 and 2 5’s, so I had an 18 for the night.

Anyway, not much else to say, so see you Thursday.


Monday was grocery day, and I feel like I got a good haul. Only $15 of my total was spent on things that were not fresh, or dairy/ova, and that makes me happy. I love that with the exception of maybe a little couscous here and there I’m not buying pasta and rice anymore and that most o my purchases are fresh foods. Mattie asked for melons and pineapple this week, and it turned out they were cheaper than I expected so I got two melons and a pineapple. I almost never buy either of those things so honestly had no idea what to expect to spend on them.

I really wanted turkey thighs because the legs always have those inedible tendons, but all they had were legs and they were cheap enough, so I got 2 packages of them. Here’s what I got. I’ll need to go back later this week for hamburger or ground turkey for zucchini spaghetti. I thought we had some but we do not.

Meats $25.84

  • Chicken Drumsticks $5.16
  • Bacon $2.98
  • Turkey Drumsticks (6) $12.78
  • Tuna (3) $2.04
  • Polish Sausage $2.88

Dairy & Ova $14.65

  • Medium Cheddar $6.53
  • Eggs (12 x 2) $2.96
  • String Cheese $2.88
  • Cottage Cheese $2.28

Frozen Food $13.88

  • Lean Cuisine (x 4) $9.92
  • Tony’s Pizza (2 x 2) $3.96

Fruits & Veggies $31.30

  • Honeydew Melon (1) $1.65
  • Cantaloupe (1) $1.55
  • Celery (2) $1.96
  • Zucchini (1) $0.65
  • Tomatoes $2.28
  • Granny Smith Apples (5) $2.48
  • Plums (7) $2.55
  • Pineapple (1) $2.98
  • Green Onion (2) $0.96
  • Cucumber (1) $0.58
  • Broccoli (2 crown) $1.00
  • Salad Mix (3) $4.74
  • Fruit Cups (3 x 4) $5.94
  • Carrots (2 lbs) $1.98

Condiments $1.22

  • Soy Sauce $1.22

Total Haul $86.89

Monday night also brought the end of the season for our pool league, and I finished out the season for 12 wins. I set a goal after my first season that this time I wanted twice as many wins as I had last time and I succeeded with exactly 12 after last night. We are playing again next season and I am hoping to get at least 18 wins then. We’ll see.

Not a lot else to say at this point. The scale is coming back down but its happening slowly, and I’m still a little irritated that it went up so much after the BBQ we went to. All I can figure is the food was really salty because a 7 pound change over night is insane!

Sunday Day SEVENTY-THREE Calibre Companion

So let’s see… The scale has been trending steadily downwards for the last 2 weeks. I’ve been really happy about that, and I’ve stayed almost totally on track for that time period. Friday night we went out for dinner, and Saturday night we went to a BBQ, where I made a few bad choices. I ended up drinking 5 beers, and while I didn’t eat “all the foods” I probably ate more than I should have. This morning I stepped on the scale and it was up seven fucking pounds since Saturday morning. Holy hell! I know its not a legitimate gain, but WTF?!?

I got up late today and fixed us bacon and eggs, but something was wrong with the bacon. It wouldn’t brown and it just tasted really, really bad. I pitched it out and heated up a dinner sausage instead which used up almost my entire day’s worth of calories just like that. I honestly wasn’t really hungry for most of the day, so dinner was just 2 chicken legs and some veggies.

Tomorrow I am going grocery shopping and also need to ship out an item I sold (finally something I made and not just an item to be resold). I’d like to do some sewing which I had planned on doing today, but somehow never got to. Pretty much all I did today was read on my Nook.

Speaking of reading, I have a lot ebooks. A lot of ebooksI use a program on my laptop called Calibre to keep track of them and keep them organized. There are lots of configurable columns, plus you can create custom columns, but I pretty much keep things to a minimum with title, author, date added, rating, series title, and any tags I’ve stuck onto a title.


There’s nothing I don’t love about this program, but I was really upset with how much work it takes to organize my ebooks even half so well on my Nook in the Aldiko reading app I was using. Don’t get me wrong, I like Aldiko, the price is right (free), and its easy to use, but its just not so great for organizing stuff when you’re super attentive to details and have specific ideas in your head about how things should go.

Enter Calibre Companion. Its a paid app, but at $2.99 its a fantastic bargain for what it does. If you look at the above image, you’ll see a connect/share buttton in the upper tool bar. Matching settings in that menu with settings in Calibre Companion, and you can wireless transfer your ebooks from your computer to your reading device in minutes. That’s not the best part. It’s nice, but its nothing compared to the features that made me fall in love with this app in ten minutes flat.

After connecting the wireless device to the computer via your wireless network, you can select titles, right click, and send to device. When the files are sent over, all your data you’ve added, changed, altered in your files will be sent over into the companion app exactly the same. Your organization on your computer is the exact organization you’ll get on your device. The detail-loving little snot inside of me about died of happiness when she discovered this.

Here’s a few views from inside the app.

There are several ways you can sort your library, each of which are grouped as seen at left.

There are several ways you can sort your library, each of which are grouped as seen at left.

This shows a grouping by series. Each set of details in a grouping are arranged alphabetically.

This shows a grouping by series. Each set of details in a grouping are arranged alphabetically.

Not only can books be brought up by series, but a book order can be assigned to them and can be displayed in that order.

Not only can books be brought up by series, but a book order can be assigned to them and can be displayed in that order.

Individual books can be brought up to show several details. I have a lot of them turned off.

Individual books can be brought up to show several details. I have a lot of them turned off.

You can see at the top in the last screen grab is a “Read” option. Calibre Companion does not have a reader built into it, but you can launch the reader app of your choice with a single tap. The only detail you can really change in your library while in the app is whether or not a title has been read yet or not, and the date it was read. You don’t even have to manually update the date read though because Calibre Companion will automatically set the date to whatever the latest date you’ve read the book on. If you started reading the book on June 18th, but finished reading it on July 3rd, the read date will show as July 3rd.

And… suppose you’ve updated the data sets on some of your titles on your computer. How do you update them in your device? Just connect the two with a single tap, and all the metadata will be exchanged and updated automatically. It really could not be any easier and I can’t rave about this app enough. Out of all the money I’ve spent on apps, or on games, this one is by far the best $2.99 I’ve spent. Its worth more than that to me, and I just wish the app’s description and the help pages showed it off better because they really do not do it justice.


The last few days have been good but fairy non – descript. Food has been good one day and crappy the next. I got a logo job I might have mentioned last time that I finished up and that gave me some unexpected money which of course I’ve mostly spent on fun stuff because it’s been a while (or at least it seems that way) since I’ve treated myself. I ordered a book on micro macrame from Amazon, some knotting cords, and some tools for working with polymer clay. I had a fun idea regarding the clay the other day and I can’t wait to try it out and see how it goes. I also got some new clay, paint brushes, and some acrylic paints over the last few days to use with my clay.

Friday evening Tracy and David came by to get their brakes done and also to have a BBQ with us. The guys were drinking so when they needed a lug nut for the car, we went to get it. Unfortunately the guy who helped us at the parts store was brand new and didn’t know his job so sent us home with the wrong stuff. I had to go back ten minutes later with David to get the right nut.

We BBQ’d brats, and chicken thighs, and also had baked beans and broccoli and potato salad. I may have had an entire bottle of wine to myself Friday night as well as cookies. The wine was good and I was feeling pretty good by the end of the night. After Tracy and David left we went to bed though I was up for a while mentally bouncing off of the walls. I can never sleep with alcohol in my system.

Saturday I slept late then went back to bed later and slept most of the afternoon away. I had a very mild headache but had gotten over heated in the night and had horrible nightmares about rats of all things. Eww! Either way I did not get a good night’s sleep.

In the evening we took Mattie’s dad to do his shopping and after we got home I went out to the beauty supply store and bought bleaching powder, developer, and a tube of hair color and came home to get to work on torturing my poor hair. After being bleached very heavily and then coloring it, my hair is now almost the same shade as Mattie’s. Part of me kind of wanted to go lighter but I was afraid it would look weird. Oddly enough what I ended up with is pretty close to my natural color around the time I was 11 or 12. It turned out way better than expected and doing it properly eliminated the harsh tones that using the drug store home color kits always leave in my hair. Maybe I will go lighter later on. I need to give this some time to get used to it first. I’m definitely not looking forward to upkeep though and doing my roots in 6 weeks or so.

Anyway I ended up with a blonde that my hair actually was when I was 11 or 12 years old. I like it but its weird too because I’ve never been able to pull off anything even close to a believable blonde before.

Sunday I fixed us bacon and eggs for breakfast, then we had a meatloaf for dinner. I had to make a run to Walmart in the afternoon because when I was doing my hair last night the joint on the hand shower in the tub broke and I didn’t realize it was actually broken- I thought it just popped off. I got a new hand shower and installed it this afternoon.

Anyway, that pretty much sums up the week and weekend. Tomorrow I’ve got shopping to do, more bills to pay, and have to buy dog food. I swear all the girls do is eat eat eat! Well, Sashi anyway. Lucy thinks we are trying to poison her half the time.